Slip sliding through mud. Everything itchs. Might be poison ivy, but im not that reactive to it. I didnt scratch, despite the itch. I got black flies dive bombing my eyes, making it difficult to see at times. I forded two rivers that ended up coming up to my waist. The water is moving, it is a bit sketchy. At one slippery muddy spot. I slipled on a wet muddy rock, my recovery step slipped on a rock, my second recovery step slipped in the mud, now my legs are pretzeled and I go down. Luckily there are rocks to break my fall. I split the impact between my wrist and my face. Thankfully it was spread out enough to not do damage. And I didnt get that muddy. Couldnt help to chuckle, I almost had a face full of mud like a lady getting a facial mask. Finally, I got to a river that after sometime I decided was insane to try and ford. I want an adventure, experience and to push myself; but I am not suicidal. I headed back to the last gravel road. There were 4 people waiting for a shuttle. I asked if I could join. They said certainly and there mjght be cell service up the hill. I walked up and called my dad. I told him where I was and that I was getting a ride to Monson and planned to stay the night there. Well a few hours later, the shuttle showed up with my dad in tow. Another hiker and I jumped in my dads truck and Monson we went. I am pretty fed up with the condition of the trail. Not only does it make passage difficult and slow, I am worried about getting injured and my feet falling off. I have bacteria growing and eating my feet. There are more important things to me than this trail. I cant fathom heading out into the 100 mile wilderness like this. With the chance of hitting a river that is too dangerous to ford and having to turn around. I might just go with my dad and summit Katahdin. I will not have completed the trail , but 21/22ths is not bad. I have had a ton of fun. I enjoyed the emotional rollercoaster that I have ridden. I am closer to my family now than I have ever been. I got to see so much beauty. I have gotten support from tons of people and I cant say enough how much I appreciate it! I feel so loved and cared for. I did lose some weight and finally feel like I am getting into a runners body. Cant wait to see what I can do without a pack. I dont think I am done with the AT either. Definitely need some time to get this taste out of my mouth (mud, cliffbars, black flies and ramen?). But maybe next time there is a drought, ill be back on the trail. Maybe just to hike, maybe go for a record (supported/unsupported). Im sure I have learned more, but one thing that is sticking out right now...I really just dont like camping; especially in the rain. But that is just hiw I feel now. I willsleep on it and we will see.