AT14 Day 45: Almost quit today
Ore Mill->Almost Liberty
Well I almost quit today. And it's not for anything you would think. I enjoyed the lovely morning climbing up MT Moosilauke. But on the descent I ran into two hikers that told me my dad was hiking up and had supplies for me. At first I was surprised. Then I got angry. I didn't think I would see him again until Baxter. Here he was telling people he was bringing me supplies. I couldn't help but think he was trying to sabotage me. Once I caught up to I let into. I called him an asshole. I told him he knew I couldn't accept support and asked why he was trying to ruin this for me. He told me to calm down and drink a Mt Dew. I told him to eff off. And I took off down. I was so pissed started hammering up the other side. Quickly my feelings went from anger to worry. I was getting along so well with my dad; it was like we were buddies. So I called him. No answer. I called again let a long sopping message. I was sorry. But he knows better. I wanted to talk to him. I texted similar. But I kept moving. Check check and re check my phone. Nothing. My chest hurt. My head hurt. I interrupted a nice family picnic with my loud sobbing. I sat down. I just couldn't move. My dad drove all this way and started hiking a mountain. He just wanted to give me a mt dew and red bull. And I told him to eff off. I am such an asshole. I am quitting I decided. Being friends with my dad is way more important than this stupid record. But I realized, great. Even if I quit I still have to walk 10 more miles out to the road. So I kept on, very mopie. Finally, I checked my phone. I had a message from my dad. "At road waiting for you". I hustled. Sweet. I'll smooth this over and be fishing with my dad in no time. I got to the highway. My dad was grilling. Are you effin kidding me. I couldn't help but laugh. I told him I was sorry about what I said and he couldn't just show up and surprise me. He knows I cant accept supplies. He tried to get me to eat a burger. I don't really eat meat and I wasn't quitting. I told him to go home and I would see him in baxter in 10 days. Some how I don't think this will be the last I see off him. But I think we came to an understanding. I said goodbye. And wondered up the trail. I was exhausted and only covered 34 miles.
Well I couldn't sleep well and had phone service. I got the Whiteblaze site to work. I read a lot of comments. And I am blown away. I appreciate all the support and am blown away by how big this has gotten. Also, I got some info on resupplying. Thank you especially to Mr townsend. It is a big help and I have already put it to use.
For everyone guessing out there, here it is...
When I started the trail I was aware of what the record was and thought, Lets see what I cal do. After 10 days average 36.6.MPD. I decided to push and see how I felt. After a couple of big days and feeling great. My confidence was growing. I decided to get my average up to 40 MPD asap. I did. Then I decided to bank miles for the Whites. My understanding was, leaving VT and starting the Whites. I had 19 miles in the bank. 1779 in 44 days. So I could bleed 5 miles a day thru the whites, a few more in Maine then pull and all nighter get Katahdin in the AM july 6-7. So 53.5-54.5 days. I guess that is a plan. But I have been flying by the seat of my pants. So we will see....
Also, someone mentioned I run on emotion. I totally do! Today my emotion tank was drain. But I love my dad and he knows it. Tomorrow is a new day